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Friday, April 15, 2005

I cut my hair! O.O! and so here's a flashback of the adventures I had and the pain I endured with virtually 3 feet of parasitic long hair:

9th grade:

...twas cut once...but struck back!

GRAWWWARRRGH!!!!! XD

10th grade...at this point my hair was very long again. Long to the point the ends started splitting in the most "creative" ways. Long enough so my friends could do this to me:

and then I experimented w/ bangs:

 Boo.

And now I remember...

All the entanglement...

All the frustration...

The difficulty of blow drying...

The nagging parent insisting on "fixing" the mess on my head...

Two years filled with #$*(&#(&**!!!-ness but still...two years of growth.
Two years that gave me the experience of having my long, messy, stubborn hair blow freely like spaghetti thrown into the wind...

Goodbye....

BAM!

 

Booya.

*Disclaimer: (c) Jade Lee (no duh) All rights reserved. Yes all that ugliness belongs to me. At least I'm assured that noone will be sad enough to steal it har.*


Friday, March 11, 2005

I hate you God...you bastard.

I was in the car with my mom.then we got a call. one of her church friends. I don't care about church. but then she informed us...

there was this guy, he tutored me in sixth grade, he was a family friend, practically a nephew to my mom, he was really nice, really patient, he was only 35, tuesday night, he was killed. goddamn fucking car accident.

goddamn fucking truck. it was late, he was tired, he needed to change lanes, he saw a truck, let it go first, but didn't realize how long the fucking truck really was.

I last saw him during winter break. He just got a house with his girlfriend. He had a good job. they just moved in. Some of the furniture wasn't even unwrapped yet. His girlfriend taught piano. They had a cat. He was happy. His life was only just beginning.

I remember when he used to tutor me. I would get mad and frustrated. But he was still so patient. I remember he helped console my mom when she was in a dilemma. I remember my mom trying to hook him up with a girlfriend.

he was never extremely close to me. We only shared a few memories. But I knew him. He was a decent person. and now all the memories that there are is flooding back into my head.

his life was only just beginning. I didn't expect to say good bye so soon. Tomorrow I'm going to go say good bye. But he's already gone.

gone.


Sunday, February 20, 2005

oops its already 12 am. so its not the 19th anymore. but in reference to the 19th...

happy birthday to me...
sweet sixteen...just a nifty alliteration that doesn't mean anything important. Except that I should be able to get a permit and run everyone over.

*sigh* sixteen years ago, my mom went through hours of labor and delivered this slimy sap into the world hanging on an umbellical chord. Now after sixteen years I still haven't done anything significant. I'm not hopeful enough to make any wishes and simply dream that they'll come true, I'm skeptical, so I think that they won't. But since that way of thinking makes me angry, I'll just have to force it my way into truth.


Tuesday, February 08, 2005

its been a long while since I've updated this thing. Honestly, I think the only reason why I even have it up is cuz I like the pretty layout. If only I'd get off my lazy ass and just create a personal website of my own instead of relying on xanga's slug-like tools. Alas, I have various priorities standing in the waiting line for my attention (or lack of). So why now? Well I thought it might be polite to let my account know that I'm not dead yet (so don't pop the champagne just yet). So just stopping by to say hello. Hello. How are you my account? let's see...I feel neglected, abandoned, ditched, take your pick...I thought we had something special, what happened? A little thing called life my friend, dreadfully sorry. Fine be that way, I changed my number so there! oh come on...you know I still hold the same feelings for you as always. Oh? Like feelings of "god I'm just wasting my time with you?" yea. something like that. I hate you. That's a pity, cuz I've always adored you. bitch. Of course.

Yea...don't mind him/her/it (account). Anyways in this month of February 2005, there seem to be many occurrences. Superbowl, Mardi Gras, Chinese New Years, Lent and Ash Wednesday, Oscar night, Valentine's Day, and a few other insignificant stuff. None of which I'm really looking forward to. Well, superbowl's already over. And today was mardi gras. Food was nice and no I didn't flash for beads, they're cheap shiny stuff, unlike some I find them rather meaningless. I just got back from a Chinese New Years eve party too. Good food (too much food for today) and I got money (yay I am no longer broke!). So that was nice. Let's see Lent and Ash Wednesday, I never really pay attention to anyways. Valentine's day is just stupid. I quote from Eternal Sunshine "Valentine's day is a holiday created by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap." and what a fine piece of crap I do feel like! Oscar night...the nominations kind of dissappoint me. Leonardo DiCRAPio BETTER not win goddammit! and WHY the HELL didn't Eternal Sunshine get nominated for Best Picture? and WHY didn't Jim Carrey get nominated for his role in it? Jeezus, Comedians are so underrated, his talent is OVERFLOWING and the damn bastards at the academy just don't see it! Well, on the other hand, Kate Winslet got her fourth nomination in Eternal Sunshine (yaaY!) but...once again the Best Leading Actress race is dominated by Annette Benning and Hillary Swank, DIE BOTH OF YOU!!!! GRRR!!! Jamie Foxx, Johnny Depp, or Don Cheadle should win for leading actor. JUST NOT DICRAPIO GODDAMMIT DIE!!! I don't really like any of the nominations for the supporting actors and actresses, Eternal Sunshine for screenplay (go Charlie Kauffman!). The Incredibles for animation (obviously). And the rest are irrelevant. nyah.

yea ok so that's all for my holidays and events tidbit for this year's February. I'm pretty sure I didn't miss anything. so yea...goodnight.

I still hate you. goodnight.


Monday, November 01, 2004

Halloweeeny! SO MUCH FUN. Po, Fruf, Lure, Lan, and I had the coolest time dressing each other up lol. We went out trick-o-treating too late though cuz we spent so much time dressing up. But we still looked "awesome" got so many pics taken by fruf and po's parents. heehee they were so excited to see us! ^_^. I dressed Lan up as the egyptian goddess of war and vengeance, Sekhmet. Who has the head of a lioness. Lan dressed up Lure as a farmer (slash nicole richie/paris hilton jk ewwww). Lure dressed up Po as a christmas tree (a.k.a unaffiliated holiday shrub) LOL so Hilarious! Aww, po had such a hard time walking around cuz of her gift-wrapped shoes hehehe. And Po in turn with the help of Fruf dressed me up as Pucca. Complete Pucca plushie fashion : red tomato blush, chopsticks of doom, and a parasol of greater doom! heehee I was only missing a Garu to chase around and harrass hehe. We went around, got complimented for our costumes (thank you thank you), got candy (but I didn't even fill up a third of my pillow case), raised quite a bit of money for unicef and then went to Loretta's house. We wanted to trick-o-treat more, but her neighborhood's houses are all distanced apart by at least a mile (rich blahs) -_-. Meh ddr people downstairs, and ssbm people upstairs. Lan and I didn't stay long before Maria's mom came to pick us up. and that was my Halloween! ^_^ fun fun, we should do this more often heehee.

Pics!:


making the nightmare before christmas.


the abominable (haha abdominal) Christmas tree!


those are some really "chic" shoes Po! XD


Fruf in Japanese samurai outfit. Harr...give us that sexy look woot! haha jk jk.


Frufurai!


All Hail Sekhmet! (or else the goddess of wrath with claw your face apart *roar* !)


Walk like an Egyptian.


ugly sideview of me as Pucca. Post-make up.


my un-pucca expression. pre-makeup.


HyaH! CHOPSTICKS OF DOOM!!!!! and the...straw hat of OMNIPOTENCE!!!!


Spazzing from an eccentric trip! jk. But I DO look kinda stoned. This is before they were done putting up my hair. XD


group pic! Happy Halloween!!!!

those of you who have other pics. that I don't have, please send it to me sometime!

+++ (don't read below if you're not interested in the confusing, the deep, or the emotional) <---( you know what...its stupid for me to have to put this warning on. Its MY journal for heaven's sake.)

As the sun tiptoed towards dusk...
its glimmering smile touched the yellow trees of fall...
then, there before my eyes...
An eternal sea of gold aflame...
...
the sun faded away into the void of night
no longer would gold be bright...
alas...
eternity exists...only within the infinity of a few.

infinity of a few? a few minutes, a few seconds, a few whatever. But whatever the few, it shall never be everlasting...

yet...at the same time that "few" occurs, it resonates into infinity, transcending space and time.

perhaps this is only a feeble fantasy of an explanation for things in life, perhaps I just believe in it, perhaps I just WANT myself to believe in it....so I'd feel better...from the "truth" that I know...but still refuse to acknowledge...

I think I'd like to BELIEVE in "truths" instead of KNOWING the truth...

sometimes.

*sigh* Jade, Jade Jade...*sigh*

Monday:

I slept until 12 pm today. o_O. meh...then ate "breakfast" went to gu zheng class, and went shopping and dining at tysons corner for the rest of the day. How pathetic. Just checked two of my grades online, and now I feel like gauging my eyes out with a corkscrew. When I get my report card for this quarter, I don't even think torching it in flames will dissolve my anger. Heh. Jade, look at yourself. You're talking so calmly, yet you should be angry. Oh don't worry, it'll hit her within a few...and then shes gonna break her skull against the sharp edge of the desk. mmhmm. just lovely.



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